Title: The World Changing
Author: Sith Jesto
Quotes from Lord of the ring [first lines] Galadriel: The world is changed. I feel it in the water. I feel it in the earth. I smell it in the air. Much that once was is lost, for none now live who remember it.
The World Changing
„I just want a normal life." Sam voice was hard and determined like a solder on mission. This was just another challenge she needed to take down. It would never be, could never be a normal life.
She grown up in a military family, a military brat as they say, her life was full of exception and hardship and she come thought all of them. But the road was hard, and never normal. If you just look her adult life, scientist and solder. She become a Colonel in the U.S.Air Force, where just a select few could reach this fast as she and she was a scientist with knowledge and brain that not just Jack couldn't follow, but her many peers neither.
She was in a top-secret military project in the last decade, what about she couldn't talk to anyone outside the SGC. She leading the primer team thought the Stargate, some place where they never see. Where she fight battles what most people on Earth not just never saw maybe couldn't even imagine and leaded mission thought alien enemy territories and destroyed false Gods whom before humans million bowed.
Was replicated and turned to cyber robot, saved the Earth who knew how many times. And she will never be able to talk about it for years or maybe not even while she was alive but she wanted a normal life. That will be bilt on lies and half-trues.
Jack was sure she wanted it, but to her the family was just another challenge, another hardship to need to take down. In her mind she planed everything, from this very speech thought her wedding to her children every moment to the next 10 year or even more. But she didn't see it, not like Jack, not yet anyway. He was over with it once. He tried to make it work, but he couldn't and he paid for it, he pay for it every day and every night. As he told Daniel once he could sometimes forget but never forgive. But maybe she could make it work, where he failed. Maybe.
But Jack couldn't stop her; she was too stubborn, just like him. Jack was sure some of her stubbornness come from him, and he was prude to be able to teach something to her which enable her to be that fine solder she became today.
But he didn't want to lose her, it was selfish he knew. But SGC and especially SG1 become his surrogate family, his light in his darkness which pulled him back and help him not to become like Maybern or Simmons.
Daniel told him once he was a good man, but Danny didn't really knew his dark past, Jack sometimes pondered if Daniel forget how he was when they first met. How emotionless and cold he could be. This trait lingered in the corner of his mind and only when he faced with some goauld, they emerged from their hiding place. But his darkness never emerged fully because they, his team, his friends, his family were there for him to help to kept a lash on it.
But Daniel left to Atlantis, Teal'c were called back in
The ache in his hart gowned every day after Teal'c left not a month ago. Daniel departured with the Daidalos just a week ago, and now Carter will leave him as well. The dull ach in his hart escalated to full pain, but he couldn't show it, he wouldn't.
He sight he know what he needed to do, the same thing what he done with Daniel, and Teal'c. And he knew he will do it again, because he needed to let her go. He will allows her, them to leave the SGC and him because he love her, them, all of them, but especially her, that was why it hurt so much. But as they say if you love someone and she want to go you need to let her go.
„I understand, I hope you will find your normal life," he smiled at her, and Sam beamed back at him, that 100 GW smile. As Jack watched her go, he hoped she will find her happiness as well as her normal life, because the two thing not the same.
With his emotionless General mask in place he turned toward the Stargate. The cold and emptiness crept back slowly in his sole. He was alone again, all alone.